Friday, June 22, 2007
when was the last time we smiled that heartfelt smile? ...
- everything's just temporary;
2:04 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
i love being back at the waters. i love the sun pouring over me. i love the waters splashing onto me. i love the thirst of winning, i love the adrenaline rush, i love the pushing beyond the limits. i love it. it makes me feel i can do it. it makes me feel i am capable of doing something more than i think i actually can. it makes me feel i have discipline. it makes me feel strong. it really makes me feel strong. mentally, physically, emotionally. and i hate it when i see others doing the same thing without any heart. it breaks my heart. it really does. it totally completely affects me in every possible way. why does my world always appear so topsyturvy all the time? is it because i want it to be that way? do i make it that way? how do you make love without having love. how do you give your heart to someone when your heart isnt even whole. how do you mend a broken heart when you caused the broken heart. how do you move back a few steps when you've already moved forward.
- everything's just temporary;
10:47 PM
how do you walk away from people you love and pretend everything is okay? ouch ouch ouch. how do you see someone walking away from you and not do a single thing to stop it? yu hang in there because i still need yu around.
- everything's just temporary;
10:37 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
how i long for yesterdays...(.yu + me = us.)
- everything's just temporary;
2:52 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
just when i made up my mind. things changed. i should have seen it coming. i should have. and now it's happened. i don't want it to. but i can't do a thing. i'm standing like a passer by not doing anything about things. not expressing myself in any way. i want to cry. i really want to. but i keep telling myself not to. tonight i learnt never to trust any guy. tonight i learnt all guys are bastards. tonight i learnt everything i was wondering about the whole time. tonight i entered the heartbreak hotel. so happy. feeling happy. should be happy. happy happy happy. i am happy. WELCOME TO THE HEARTBREAK HOTEL MELISSA. tonight i walked away from someone for always.
- everything's just temporary;
9:48 PM
Saturday, June 09, 2007
the sister's super hot! went to watch her performace at RP yesterday. she's a blast.. right zm! hahhas. nudges. (: i think she'll be a fantastic 'dancer in a club'. hahhas.but the stupid concert started so late. ): and i had to rush down all the way from CCK. ): without the hairdryer! ): ): ): and he had to drive me all the way down so as not to be late! cruising the highway and weaving in and out of traffic so i'd be on time. aw, sweet. not to mention cursing the car in front of him. hahas. damn funny la! it was my fault we were late! not YOURS! hhaha i think we can ace the amazing race. it'd be super funny. lols. or maybe not. .. since we're such nice people. ahhahs.POOF. hahhas. anwys met up with alan, stephh and zm for the concert. hahhas. alan banana yumyum! ahhahas. (: yesterday someone flew to the moon and back right.. with all those compliments and hot chics dancing with you! ): ): ): hahhas. whatever it is, if i'm in da club you better save a dance for me! OR ELSE i'll feel very sad. slow two finger squiggle. mua. loves.
supposed to meet steph to watch bring it on 2 and 3! but i'm working the entire next week. SAVE ME. ): and i gotta eat lunch alone la. like thats how sad. any dates anyone? i'm working near marine parade..! call me.headed to zouk on wed with darren and derrick, who's car is. a true wham bam slam. hahas. (:i wonder why it's always during the happy moments that people take pictures. because i sometimes feel that the sad moments happen to be the more genuine ones. like the ones we had taken in spectacles. smiles that weren't smiles. a facade worn over by the frames?
- everything's just temporary;
6:55 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
i'm super curious at why people who don't really know me want to know so much about me. and they go about me to know more about me. this is so weird. i don't understand why they can't just call me to ask me straight in my face. don't pussy lehs. okay. so let's get some facts right. 1. i am single. 2. i am in love. 3. i am being loved. 4. if you want to know me, ask me. it's the most reliable source. (: hey my dear sweet chienne, it's not like that anymore. we don't do this anymore. we don't pretend. we've had enough of that crap. we eventually wake up to this reality. and we don't continue making the same mistakes, we learn from them. i tried to pull you out from the mess. but now i wonder if you ever wanted to be out of the mess. je ne suis pas un chéri d'ami, je suis un ennemi. étape fausse, je me suis trouvé.she was about five. alone. in a city unknown to her. and in her memories, faded images of hiding away from that lady. someone she never really got around to know, to love, to acknowledge, to respect. bits and pieces of contempt thrown in together to overwrite the hurt and pain. betrayal by her one and only best friend. every night crying herself to sleep. every night praying it could be the last. crying out to someone, for someone. no one ever came. no one to turn to. no one to cry to. no one for comfort. why didn't anyone come? baiser de la mort.
- everything's just temporary;
8:58 PM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
we were talking about love. and its complexity and depth. its hard to understand love. yet its so simple. its interesting how "we are made from love. we are made of love. and we are made for love" by bro mike, yet we have the slightest idea of what it is exaclty. watched dirty dancing ytd. i love it. (: these sorta shows always make you wanna dance too. i wanna dance dance dance. (: groove night today at dxo. (: yay. salsa again. i love salsa. it can be so sensual when you have such a good lead.this june il be heading to malaysia instead of china thank God. hahha. (: going with the family from the 16th to the 20th and with andrea, yl and someone else from the 24th to th 27th. sweet.don't ever wanna have to give you up. but i know i have to.to feel that love, that strong feeling, when i needed to, i could have cried for joy. i have never felt so pure before. i'll give you everything that i am, and everything that i've got.
- everything's just temporary;
3:26 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
c'est la vie. s'il y a une chose en ce monde que je veux, il doit être heureux pour vous.
- everything's just temporary;
12:10 AM
